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|Tuesday, January 10th, 2017|
Calling it time served and must register.
|Tuesday, August 9th, 2016|
There comes a time when you sit back in your recliner with your pipe/book/drink/whatever, and think about good times. Especially those that have seemed to have closed the door on their chapter.
For about two years straight, one of my friends in AZ would always visit the park here in Anaheim at least once a month, and would always have their friends in tow. And these were all post high-school/college/young adult types with the occasional old Gen Xer like me thrown in the mix. I would make a point to hang because, well, to be honest, a way to recapture the old youth. And party…a lot.
I won’t lie. It was fun. But like all 20-something cliques the inevitable splitting of people into their own groups, relationships breaking up, moving away, life changes, etc. would rear their head. A lot of people have left the scene. I think the last time I had a nighttime ‘science experiment’ with them was probably April of this year, which was a mini clique offshoot of the original gang. To be honest, I didn’t have fun. And there’s a lot of those I know I’ll probably never see in person again.
But, it’s more fun now to look at those people and see how they are progressing in life, while I continue my usual gallivanting around the park. And if any possible adventures happen now, I would expect those adventures to happen maybe once a year, if I’m lucky.
|Thursday, June 16th, 2016|
|Usual post vacation post
While the depression is no where near how it used to be, it still sucks.
It's not as bad as I am becoming used to it because I see the signs. I get working on my artistic projects, then abruptly stop because I see a squirrel, then I read about someone I know achieving something, even something as minute as headlining an open mic at a dive bar, and the "you're a lazy fuck that's doing nothing" starts entering my head.
Difference this time is that I know I'm slacking...because I'm trying to buy a house.
But I know the problem...I'm not being active and just being a couch potato.
Therefore I know the solution.
Writing this stuff down helps too.
|Saturday, February 20th, 2016|
If I lost my job tomorrow, would I really be in trouble?
So tired of my bi-polar supervisor...one day nice as can be, the next time cruel and manipulative.
So tired of her narcissism.
So tired of one day "you won't get fired" to "one more screwup and you're fired"
I'm finally done with the crux of all my problems. Nothing hiding...and yet it's never good enough.
It would be hard if I lost my job...but I think we'd be alright.
I think it's time to start looking again.
|Thursday, February 4th, 2016|
I should be used to it after 13 years. But the 1st quarter of a new year always gives me such work anxiety. I'm so worried about getting yelled out by supervisors and managers or having to call back angry clients to tell them I can't help them just grates on my nerves.
I think the big problem is currently I don't have a good alternative. Or drive to look again.
I rally need to meet more people out here. Friendships get you jobs.
|Tuesday, June 2nd, 2015|
|I could write a book.
I should have trusted my gut instinct. Selling himself like a snake oil salesman.
Already hinting at stuff to do next year.
Well...ball is in their court. What's best for business. I can deal with that. Current Mood: disappointed
|Tuesday, April 28th, 2015|
I am so fucking tired of everywhere I go and everywhere I try to advance myself in the convention circuit in TWO STATES I have to hear his fucking name! EVERY FUCKING WHERE! And every fucking where I go I get blocked.
Name one thing he has done in the State of AZ except parade around in a fucking Dark Helmet suit that he fucking bought!
Yes, I'm livid. Mostly at PCC..."we have to use him because they're paying for him." Well la de fucking dah! There's at least THREE other people perfectly capable and KNOWN IN PHOENIX that can handle those reigns aside from me. Just shows how much the PCC host have their FUCKING HEADS UP THEIR ASS!
This is more than likely my last trip to an AZ convention. I'm only going because of Becca anyway.
I hope you guys have an awesome show with an awesome following, and take many pictures. But yeah...I'm done.
|Monday, September 8th, 2014|
Just wanna write this down somewhere quiet.
The musical I worked on for many years had a reunion show this past weekend. I saw some of the footage from the show and I'm really happy it turned out well. But despite many of the cast practically begging me to trot down to perform as they were having issues with their replacement of me, I simply couldn't.
Part of it was money; we're living paycheck to paycheck right now while I try to build my voice over studio; a vacation at this point would have put us past ramen for diner and straight into bread-and-water-ville.
But I shant lie. The main part is my feelings were hurt. The main guy putting it together had come to me on a Friday telling me about the show. I explained my situation, both in money and getting time off, but mentioned I would ask my boss on Monday about time off. During this time there was a group setup on ye olde FB to speak on. Not even 30 hours after my talk, there's a post from a member that they found a bass player.
I'd always felt I was taken for granted; my singing duties kept diminishing after every annual show we would do, and this just pushed it over the edge. Fuck you, I'm not going to spend hours practicing alone to drive down on my own dime to play one FREE show on a Sunday if you already found someone before I could even check if I could go. So while I still felt bad I couldn't go, I am a performer after all; there was some solace in hearing people telling me how much I was missed. Yes, kiss the ring, bitches.
Again, I'm very happy that it turned out okay. If another show comes up and the stars are aligned(and if I have cash), it could happen again.
But for now...it's all about my Voice-Acting studio.
|Tuesday, July 29th, 2014|
Sometimes you just gotta say, what the hell. Carpe diem.
|Thursday, May 29th, 2014|
Alright gang! Here we go! As promised, here is my Voice Over commercial demo so you can hear my lovely voice.
Can't believe I started this journey almost 10 months ago and here we are. Now I just have to complete my home studio and start auditioning!http://youtu.be/DVEcZ4McvH4
|Thursday, November 21st, 2013|
|Wednesday, November 20th, 2013|
|So..what have we learned today?
Mugshot takes 10:01am Wednesday.
Superior court records show search warrant for house, car, and B Central Self Storage, 5142 N 43rd Ave, Unit B127, Glendale, Az. done on October.
KPHO releases article of 19yr old coming forward stemming from allegations from 2006 of dating underage girls. 2006 would be the brouhaha when Chandler was taken over.
9,000 articles taken. More than likely will include theatre photos and video.
Consensus = busted for pictures; not dating. Exploitation of a minor is a class 2 felony fine and or 4-10yrs. if the minor is under 15, 10-24 years(17 pre). This is why the noting of 5-12demographic was crucial.
It's not what the angry masses want to hear, but because they hate him they are matching it together. No current proof of physical misconduct. Highly doubtful that people will come forward. While this scenario is wrong on all levels, it is in no way another Jimmy Saville.
Prediction = Must register as SO. Minimal jail time, if any. I predict plea bargin to get out of fail free.
People will be pissed.
end of research.
|Thursday, October 24th, 2013|
Still confused at my latest job interview.
Did a nice 45 minute interview with the supervisor I would be reporting to and another supervisor. Lotta background, lotta talk. Was told that I would have to take a typing test afterwards. So I wait.
And in comes, unannounced, the main Manager and a tier 2 person. We have a little small talk here and there; little joking. And then the grilling starts. Questions questions questions, questioning my tenure at work. Every answer I give is not good enough.
Then it happens, he puts all my shortcomings on me and flat out days, "it would be a risk to hire you" and starts suggesting I still try to work it out with my current job. I stand firm and answer all his stuff truthfully and let him speak his mind. I still say I wish to work elsewhere, that I wish to try something new. Then the tone changes and we're back to small talk, little tech questions, can I type more than 60. He then says he is not the one doing the hiring, that the people that originally talked to me would make the final decision. back to smiles, and that was it. Two hours later and I'm out the door
I don't know if it was a stress test or what, I mean managers aren't all stupid. But man, talk about taking the wind out of my sails. I'm more upset that it seems like another gigantic waste of time and pto to end up short again.
Still, undaunted, I carry on...
|Thursday, August 1st, 2013|
It can get really frustrating when you look back mid year and realize this year alone you've been job hunting for 6 months straight and all you have to show for it is a bunch of nibbles. Maybe a bite here and there. Why is it so hard to reel one in?
I have been trying to leave this shithole of a company for eight years! Moving to cali only made the work situation worse. And the only reason I am still here is I can't afford to take a lower cut.
But man. Something's gotta go my way sooner or later.
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|Tuesday, July 30th, 2013|
Time may heal all wounds and sometimes a tiger can change their stripes...but it never ceases to amaze me how some people will keep people in their life after they truly hurt them, but yet have no problem shoving away people that actually cared.
Some people are just gluttons for punishment I guess.
Either that or I just know some fucking stupid people....both now and in my college days.
|Tuesday, June 25th, 2013|
|Well what do you know.
How interesting that I look at one of my artistic pages and find a certain someone has removed themselves.
Glad to see the light bulb was turned on.
May you sit and ponder.
|Monday, June 24th, 2013|
|it is finished
But all in all not a bad number. out of ten people that I've had a 'closer than just friends' relationship...I've only expelled two. What can I say, I like to stay friends. But if they don't want to, there's no point in hanging around like a sad lap-dog.
|Friday, June 14th, 2013|
You know what grinds my gears the most on FB?
People that "like" more than 90% of the stuff you write. I have over 800 'friends' on here and even I don't do that. Seriously, dude, either fess up you secretly want me or get some more friends. Current Mood: annoyed
|Friday, May 31st, 2013|
Ehhh...you ever get the feeling you're being ignored by those who used to call you 'friend'?
Meh. If you had the stones, you'd hurry up an delete me and get it over with.